From my new book: "NUM INSTANTE SOU EU".
from chapter 13 - pg.88
The last seven days before the birth were ahead of her. Her anxiety reached extreme levels. The desires pulsing in her heart were directed solely towards the birth of her daughter, Maria Lúcia, who, according to Zane, would come into the world on May 29th. Desires that were, in truth, pure obsession, her mind fixed on a single purpose: the arrival of her daughter into this world full of tragedies and unexpected events. To her first daughter, all her first love. Would she be able to survive the impact of first love? Yes! The love she had for her daughter. Did she die? Of course not. This is how the human soul is built, and even more so, the human heart. The sensitivity of our spiritual soul, inhabited by angels and good spirits, like the Holy Spirit, a pure soul, is what we need to be more human. The sensitivity of the soul accumulates in the subconscious and is difficult to soften. Perhaps these were Zane's thoughts in that moment of anguish, of great anxiety and near abandonment, because her relatives had not yet arrived. Her parents and siblings. Grandparents, and in some cases great-grandparents. They would be her greatest strength, pure encouragement and inspiration. She never wanted that first love to die. "If you aren't born from me, darling, I think I'll go crazy." Obviously, one cannot understand a mother's love. Besides being manifest, it is also secret and mysterious. If we had to measure it at the peaks of the highest levels of exaltation, such a machine wouldn't be able to reach the top. Zane was expecting an emotional shock, a collapse of her emotions, a burning fire that would consume her soul. This was the great anguish in her heart. To suffer the impact of the love that, in her imagination, would be about to explode with joy, seeing her daughter reborn. A mother's love reaches the maximum limits of fantasy. Were these really the thoughts in Zane's mind? Only she could tell us. But the anxiety was visible to the naked eye.
- Where is Biel!! Her anxiety was the dilemma that tormented her mind, to the point of making her delirious, trying to predict the future by reflecting on things that had happened in the past!
Biel was beside her, sleeping, dead tired. It wasn't just anxiety that plagued her mind. It was also anguish, an extreme mental pain that sometimes becomes devastating.

